what is the soundtrack?

stop following me

desired outcomes, desired results, be here now. needs driven economy. creative intelligence. love. deep economy. the sensual act of smoking: slow drag inhale full, mouth open, hungry. the whisper exhale full, slow, lingering.

it's flacid. #dickpatrol. poetry criticism. zen vs. buddhism, differing in the part about essentially nothing vs. essentially good. i.e zen vs. the board of education. or vice versa. good skit options. hardness vs. softness. really we should all join improv classes. as part of our education, and also, free schooling, and going back to kindergarten to learn non-defensive communication and non violent civil disobedience and growing our own food.

clitoral reconstruction, whole female identity. 

nyeah, no. give them an inch they take a yard. supporting other peoples' foundations. non separate.

sigh.

thought remnants today.

is there a theme?

if there is a theme, its soundtrack is either faith, by george michael, or ha! don't be mad, love will keep us together, who is it, who is it? captain and tenile. peaches and 'h'erb. or, trick daddy in da wind.

so fkg random this one. the musical theme can be better illustrated by the other online scatterheart writing pad: 365on21ststreet.

let's choose authenticity! for example i colored my hair 'cause you know, you aren't supposed to look older. but it's so fake. i hate being fake. i would rather have grooves in my face and gold* teeth than not recognize myself for trying to change this miraculous insanely gorgeous thing i got when i dove down here.

* notice i didn't say yellow, which is my second favorite color

do you

integrity. revisited.

walking the talk.

oh, a friend brought a smile to my face tonight. she'd taken me up on the suggestion to give blessings as you fall asleep, or whenever, like the metta prayer, thousands and thousands upon thousands of times. and she experienced the power of giving a blessing to a stranger, who received her blessing and shouted, gracias, through tears.

and what is extra great about this particular contrarian friend. what, that's a word. is that she resents having to practice gratitude, as if forcibly. which i admire. she wants authenticity. 

see, it works.

and it doesn't have to be precise, it's just action in the direction of the intention. for example. if you want to bring more creativity into your life, commit to one thing. take one step. write one word. and make it beautiful.

creative activity

hexagram one
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call for entries: man. there is this gallery i walk into, into a white small room, greeted by a stranger, he greets me like we're old friends, welcome. he says. embracing me. on a bench lies a sleeping beautiful man. there are other rooms. each with a sleeping beautiful man.

black plastic fork jacket.it doesn't bother me that you are not interested in me. it bothers me that you are SO not interested in me.

you taught me so much. about youtube and electric bikes, electronic music, and love.
moderate in all things, except love.

shimmery and shifting [i built you a metal blanket to go with your metal bed], i cannot develop it.

T RUST. lovelight.

call for entries: it's freer here.

plus, i got a beautiful son.

(jeremiah jenkins, thank you)

whatcha whatcha whatcha want
ABUNDANCE. free money. Attraction: what you put your thoughts to. where your energy goes. What you attract. What attracts you.
all caps? script? freestyle? Bauhaus?
Generosity, gratitude. Desire. Dreams. what does home feel like? what does it look like?  mine looks like a polished cement couch that's heated. and on it comes one of those lovers you can run your fingers over, and maybe a cat.  and a light filled room with a view and trees and peace.  and awesome. 

it's astounding, time is fleeting

truth means different things to different people.

what's yours? what is important to you? what do you most value?