creative activity

hexagram one
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call for entries: man. there is this gallery i walk into, into a white small room, greeted by a stranger, he greets me like we're old friends, welcome. he says. embracing me. on a bench lies a sleeping beautiful man. there are other rooms. each with a sleeping beautiful man.

black plastic fork jacket.it doesn't bother me that you are not interested in me. it bothers me that you are SO not interested in me.

you taught me so much. about youtube and electric bikes, electronic music, and love.
moderate in all things, except love.

shimmery and shifting [i built you a metal blanket to go with your metal bed], i cannot develop it.

T RUST. lovelight.

call for entries: it's freer here.

plus, i got a beautiful son.

(jeremiah jenkins, thank you)

whatcha whatcha whatcha want
ABUNDANCE. free money. Attraction: what you put your thoughts to. where your energy goes. What you attract. What attracts you.
all caps? script? freestyle? Bauhaus?
Generosity, gratitude. Desire. Dreams. what does home feel like? what does it look like?  mine looks like a polished cement couch that's heated. and on it comes one of those lovers you can run your fingers over, and maybe a cat.  and a light filled room with a view and trees and peace.  and awesome. 

it's astounding, time is fleeting

truth means different things to different people.

what's yours? what is important to you? what do you most value?

dreams, waking, series

dreams:

1. holding tight to mountain lioness.
2. being together in like a straw lined wagon with father and [step] sister.
3. carrying an Egyptian goddess to an alter during a ritual; what is the ritual? am i doing it right?

waking:

1. staring at you, smiling.
2. tickle contests with the self proclaimed 'black belt in tickling.'
3. hugging housemate; and, affection, affection, affection.

reason

i want us to move into this space together, but you are hesitating.

i let you go.

reasons:
i want to do what feels right, to be safe and clear and strong, to be in integrity, to define my individual needs without distraction, without depending on someone outside myself to create happiness, satisfaction, or the ability to take care of myself alone.

in doing so, i felt drop away all of what 'everyone else' thinks is right. everything else is superficial. i will wait. i will allow. and i will fight for what i want. i will remember gratitude and abundance and infinite creativity as my natural states.

reason was wrong. i just threw the bolt that split myself in two.

heart is what matters.

this is what love looks like

you get to imagine it